Monday, May 24, 2010

Week 6- Hooray!

Hooray!! I am in the 270s! It has been a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNG time since I have been in the 270s :-D It feels REALLY good.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Exciting News!

I have a surgery date! EEK!

I got the call today from Nancy, the lady in charge of scheduling, to say I had a surgery date for June 21st if I wanted it. SO, OF CORUSE I took it! Hooray!

I go in on June 4th for the pre- op appointment to meet with the surgeon, sign all the consent forms and everything else. Then I just wait for June 21st to roll around.

I can't believe I will have surgery in ONE MONTH. YAY!

Monday, May 17, 2010

Week 5- See the difference!

Aaron suggested I take this weeks pics in the same clothes as the starting picture. So, here they are! I am wearing a different color of the same shirt and the same pants.

And one so you can see how big the pants are on me!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


I'm so stinkin excited!!

284.6!!!!! That's how much I weighed this morning!

EEK! LOL! I am so excited because 285 is my wall.... I can't ever seem to make it to 285. So I feel REALLY good about being 284

Monday, May 10, 2010

Week 4

Today I weigh 286.4 lb. Here are the pics

This was not a great week. Even though I was sick for a couple days and hardly ate, I still didn't lose a whole lot. I dont think i look much different in the pics from last week. Really I look bigger, ugh. But, that is probably due to the shirt I am wearing. When i look in the mirror it seems like my face is thinner...
Honestly, this is where I would usually start to give up... I am still working just as hard if not harder and seeing less results.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Now that I think about it...

Now that I think about it... the latest stop in my journey with infertility took me to a psychologist. She recommended I get back with my psychiatrist and use the 'time off' from TTC to work on my mental health, relationship with Aaron, etc

Now that I think about it.... the latest stop in my journey to bariatric surgery took me to a social worker. She recommended I see my psychiatrist and also a therapist so I have support in place through the struggle of post surgery.

Now that I think about it... my journey to bariatric surgery and my journey in fertility have really converged into the same road. For the first time in a LONG time I really feel like I am heading in the right direction. No questions or doubts about it.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Step in the Right Direction... or not?

I have to say... my surgeon ROCKS! I didn't know, but he is the head of the department and he kicks butt. You know how there were no psych eval appointments in may? Well, I got a call the day after I emailed him letting him know i didn't get an appointment until June (he wanted me to get in for may so we could do the surgery in June.) I was offered an appointment for TODAY! Hooray!

So, Aaron and I headed over to Union City to meet with social worker who screens for eating disorders. It is very clear that I do not have an eating disorder, but she was very concerned about my psych history. Ugh! She said the surgery can be hard emotionally on a lot of people. Her worry about me, because of my 'history' is that I could get very depressed, spiral downward and ultimately make another attempt on my life. so, she is recommending to the surgeon that i meet with my Psychiatrist to review my medication management and also get hooked up with a Therapist before surgery. So, ok, whatever I will do it. I already had an appointment with my psychiatrist for next week and she can hook me up with a therapist if that is what she feels is best (since she is my psychiatrist, after all...)

One step forward, two steps back?

Monday, May 3, 2010

Week 3- Met the Goal!

First things first- Today I weight 289.0lb! Hooray! Here are the pics

Since I met the goal the surgeon gave me, I left the message for their office with all the info and also filled out the "test" I am supposed to do and send in when I am close to goal. I got a call from one of the nurses (or MA or whatever) and she said the earliest I can get into the psychiatrist is on June 8th. My surgeon had told them on Friday to get me in for the psych appt in May, and if there was no openings they needed to force an appointment to make it happen. so I am bummed That the nurse didn't make it happen. They will not even schedule the surgery until I have had the psych appointment. I am really really bummed. I mean, crap. If it is not going to happen until july/aug then I might as well try this on my own.

Honestly I am just scared.... scared I can't do it on my own. I have tried so many times and ultimately give up. I want to succeed this time. UGH

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Appointment with the Surgeon

sorry I am just getting to update on my appointment with the surgeon on Friday....

I went out to dinner on Thursday for my birthday (AGAIN, this time with Aaron's mom and sister) and probably ate a bit too much and I also drank soda. So Friday in the afternoon I was retaining water, I guess, because I weighed in at 297. UGH, SOOOO frustrating! The surgeon said he wants me to get down to 285lb before they will do the surgery, and I was so very upset about that. I thought it would be closer to 295, so I totally thought I had reached my goal. If I would have known that it would be lower, I would have been so much more strict on myself through all the birthday and baptism celebrations. oh well. So, I am supposed to call when I get to 290 so they can get me on the surgery schedule. I weighed today and I am 291.4 so I am almost there.

I asked him about the two year wait to get pregnant and what my history and situation was. He said after 12 months it would be safe, but he would prefer to wait until 18 months! So, yay! I have official word from the surgeon that we dont have to wait 2 years.

He told me I should consider the bypass instead of the sleeve bc there is a lot of data on PCOS resolving after a bypass. There aren't ANY case studies after the sleeve, but that is more because it is a newer procedure. So, I will consider it but I want to know if maybe he wants to be the first Dr to do that case study on PCOS and the sleeve. So, we will see. I dont have to decide right away.

I also met with a dietitian from the bariatric program to talk about what I have been doing with my diet and what the post surgery diet will be like. She was VERY impressed with all the big changes I have already made and how much weight I have already lost. She thinks I will do well after surgery, so yay! The only thing I need to do is start taking all the vitamins and supplements I will need to take to replace what I will not be able to take in anymore.

I anticipate calling sometime this week to let them know I Am at 290lb so we can get a surgery date!